Day 165 – Feeling of purpose.

Have had a couple of more hard days lately.  To try to cut down on my days when I ask myself “What am I really doing? What is my purpose each day?,” I have decided that Samson will someday be the scientist that finds a cure for cancer and Lukas will be the Oscar winning actor that funds Samson’s research.  So, everything I do with them at home is helping to shape them for this – their mother’s predetermined destiny for them.  There, I feel much better. Oh wait, now I feel much more pressure.  Maybe this was not such a good idea. Never mind.  Samson can be whatever he wants (with a couple of exceptions I won't mention here).  I still need Lukas to get me into the Oscars, but he doesn't actually have to win.